My quest for balance this year is going well! I’ve been rocking my WIP, writing at every opportunity I can. Things are really starting to click with my current story and it feels SO GOOD.
I also feel like I’m keeping up with all other key aspects of my life. Usually when I get immersed in a project, I let the dishes or the laundry go, but I haven’t this time. I’m astounded it’s possible to actually balance writing and household work. Same goes with family time, kids’ homework, ballet, kid activities, and all the other things in life that are important.
But there’s one thing I’m really struggling to find balance with—and for the most part, it’s completely out of my control—which makes it more difficult. I’ve been trying so hard to create good relationships with people who I haven’t connected with over the past few years. Family, friends. And it hurts when these people don’t want it. When it’s apparent that they don’t want anything to do with me.
And I get that all I can do is be the best person I can be. I can be nice and if it isn’t reciprocated, then it’s out of my hands. At least I’ve tried. But it still baffles me how some people can just be mean. I want to believe the good in everyone. I want to believe that people aren’t out specifically out to get me. Because I choose to believe that people aren’t inherently evil.
It just makes me sad that there might not ever be a relationship between people who should have a relationship. We only get to live once, which makes it vital that we try and make the right decisions. Do you ever feel like time after time you’re giving a person the benefit of the doubt only to be disappointed?
The thing is, while I write this, I know I’ll keep trying. I’ll keep smiling and hope that one day people come around. I know that happiness doesn’t come from others. We choose to be happy, regardless of our circumstances. And I can do that.
But if you’d like to share, I’d love to know if any of you have advice. If you’ve had an estranged relationship that you were able to turn into something good. If there are any tactics you’ve used that have healed wounds between people. I suppose all circumstances are different, but I really do believe with the right communication and with unconditional love, that someday things can be made right.
Red. Head. Out. :)