(As always, thank you, Alex, for being the head of this awesome group)
Have you ever had these thoughts?
What’s the point when nothing positive is happening?
I work and work and work, and all I get is slammed in the face. I thought I had talent, but I must be wrong. I’m delusional. Why am I doing this again? Everyone around me is making it happen, having success, but I seem to be the only person who struggles. Maybe I’m not cut out for this. Maybe I’m not strong enough.
Am I that awful?
But do you also have thoughts like this?
I know I can do this.
So many little things have happened in life that tells me I’m supposed to do this. Look how far I’ve come since I first started. I’ve grown leaps and bounds! It really is the people who stick with it and keep trying who make it. I do have that extra something it takes to create magic. It doesn’t matter what’s happening with anyone else, I know my work has worth.
I’m not completely horrible.
I think for the most part, I’ve come to accept the demons inside my head—mostly because I’ve learned it’s normal as a writer. I’ve learned to ride the wave… there are awesome “up” moments (that last fleetingly) before the long waves of hard work set in. And that’s what it comes down to.
Doing the work.
Simple as that. :)
No, I’m not where I want to be yet, but I also know that the only reason I’ve learned what I’ve learned and accomplished the things I’ve accomplished so far is because I’ve WORKED. I wish it were as easy as dreaming… as having enough passion to just will things to happen. But at the same time I don’t because it wouldn’t be nearly as satisfying in the end. It’s a twisted thing, living inside the writer’s mind. ;)
Now this is the part where I usually say we can't let these dark thoughts eat us up. How they're so easy to give in to, and dwelling on the negative only paralyzes us and stifles our creativity. But I'm still kind of in a funk, so I'm going to skip that part and share with you something that quickly reminds me what is really important.
This is a song sung by my brother, Clayton, and accompanied by my other brother, Marshall, and his friend Steve. There's something about this song that makes me forget all the trivial things in life and makes me really zone in on what's most important. Few songs do that, but this does. I hope you enjoy.