Alex, for being the host of this fabulous group. You're an amazing influence in this lovely writing community!
This month, I’m feeling insecure about EVERYTHING! It’s so funny how our writer brains work. The mental battle we go through about whether we can do this or whether we can really make it in this business.
And lately, for me, everything’s become more real. Now, more than ever I’m afraid I won’t be good enough. I know I have the will power and mental drive, I’m just scared I don’t have the exceptional talent that needs to go with the motivation.
I’ve stayed up until 2:00 in the morning every night for the last 2 ½ months to get this latest revision done. And I’m scared to death that it’s not there. That I haven’t dug deep enough or reached the point in my writing that’s really taken my work to the next level.
Is the story vivid with depth and richness? Are the scenes alive? Are the characters believable and real? How’s the pacing? Is the reader connected to the story to the point that he/she can’t put it down?
That’s what I want.
I know some people are concerned about what publisher they get, but I’m concerned about truly crafting a story that’s amazing. I’m not content with writing something that’s exists on the surface.
We only get one chance to debut, and I want to make sure I do it in the best way I can to start my career.
So I’m scared.
But I also know that I’m doing my best. At least I’m giving it my all. I’ve sacrificed sleep, food, downtime, and sanity to get this done. And I know that when we sacrifice and put in the work, good things come—even if it’s just the change that happens in us.
Red. Head. Out. :D