Wednesday, April 3, 2013

April IWSG...


Thanks, Alex, for being the host of this fabulous group. You're an amazing influence in this lovely writing community!

This month, I’m feeling insecure about EVERYTHING! It’s so funny how our writer brains work. The mental battle we go through about whether we can do this or whether we can really make it in this business.


And lately, for me, everything’s become more real. Now, more than ever I’m afraid I won’t be good enough. I know I have the will power and mental drive, I’m just scared I don’t have the exceptional talent that needs to go with the motivation. 

I’ve stayed up until 2:00 in the morning every night for the last 2 ½ months to get this latest revision done. And I’m scared to death that it’s not there. That I haven’t dug deep enough or reached the point in my writing that’s really taken my work to the next level.

Is the story vivid with depth and richness? Are the scenes alive? Are the characters believable and real? How’s the pacing? Is the reader connected to the story to the point that he/she can’t put it down?

That’s what I want.

I know some people are concerned about what publisher they get, but I’m concerned about truly crafting a story that’s amazing. I’m not content with writing something that’s exists on the surface.

We only get one chance to debut, and I want to make sure I do it in the best way I can to start my career.

So I’m scared.

But I also know that I’m doing my best. At least I’m giving it my all. I’ve sacrificed sleep, food, downtime, and sanity to get this done. And I know that when we sacrifice and put in the work, good things come—even if it’s just the change that happens in us.

Red. Head. Out. :D 



47 comments:

  1. I'm sure it's all amazing Morg :) And I'm sure you're going to have a truly spectacular book to show for all your efforts! One that will get snapped up by publishers. Seriously.

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  2. Giving your best is really all you can do or expect of yourself. But still, I think these are good questions to ask of ourselves. And like you, I'd rather fret over crafting a well-told story and worry about the publisher afterwards.

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  3. You're doing your best so don't despair Morgan. You may have one chance to debut but you many chances to write books. Keep going and know your blogger buddies are here for you.

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  4. I hope you realize the answers to those questions you have are not supposed to be given by yourself but will come from your beta-readers and crit partners. You have to do your best and then you have to pass your baby around and trust on these most important people to give you the answers you seek. :)

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  5. Your sacrifices will pay off in the near future. You're putting your heart and soul into your story...and that will shine through! The story should always come first. You certainly have your priorities straight. :)

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  6. It's like my mom always says..."Just do your best and that's all you can do." Now, I'm sure -your- best is head and shoulders over most, so don't worry and don't freak out.

    You've put your time in and you're ready...your brain just won't let you off that easy :)

    Just do what you know and it will work out. Have faith!

    Best wishes :)

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  7. It sounds like you're pouring your heart and soul into this book, and I bet the end result will be fantastic! Good luck with your continued hard work, Morgan! I'll send happy thoughts your way at 2:00 in the morning, because I'm always up that late too. :)

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  8. It's going to be amazing! You are amazing :) But I know the feeling. Best wishes- you got this :)

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  9. Make sure you read through your revisions at least once during normal hours! Too often my brain loses its edge after midnight and what I think was great and awesome ends up being a little silly when I read it the next day.

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  10. You are so dedicated! It's going to be amazing, I just know it! Keep up your hard work. It WILL pay off!!

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  11. At least you know you couldn't have done anything else, and that you tried your absolute hardest to make it the best it could be. I'm sure it's brilliant, anyway :)

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  12. I'm sure your work has more depth to it than you know. You're really close to it right now. After your revisions, take a chill pill and a few weeks off, then come back to it with fresh eyes. You'll be amazed!

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  13. Morgan, I TOTALLY get you. I was just telling a writer friend of mine that I reread my first 3 or 4 chapters (I'm querying right now and have a lot of agents reading) and I thought to myself "WOW this book is shallow...how is ANYONE interested in this crap?" then I took a step back and realized I worked so hard on this book that it will resonate with some people...maybe some shallow people...haha kidding. The point is, Morgan, I am so sure your book has more depth and voice and awesomeness than you are thinking right now. We ALL go through that phase- even published authors. :) Don't worry...you're not alone <3

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  14. Morgan, I so appreciate your honesty! It is hard to put your soul into your work and wonder. I do this with my art. Every time I mail in a submission, I feel like a piece of me is lost in limbo. The wait, the worry and the wonder do take a toll on the psyche. I agree with Nick, step away and let it rest. Do something fun or new and come back to it. The more we experience the better the writing, the art becomes. Writers and all artists have to keep pushing their own boundaries. I believe you can do it :D

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  15. I'm sure it's gonna be amazing Morgan. I'll be first in line to buy it :)

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  16. I seriously can't wait until your book comes out. You are so amazing in this community, and I'm going to be the first to get it (not Kelley. DOWN WITH KELLEY! She lies.).

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  17. Yeah, that. I don't know how to tell when enough is enough. I even posted today about being untalented and unaware, so I'm feeling it too. Enough? I don't know if it exists. I hope you're there, because it's clear you've given it your all, but I too wonder if my all is enough. I can say: Good luck. You work really hard, and I bet that if you've worked this hard on it, it will shine.

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  18. Morgan you're amazing!! I seriously admire you as a person and a writer. I'll be first in line to buy your book. Trust me you rock!!

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  19. I hear you. I've read a few "surface" books lately and I get so worried my books will be too. I've no doubt your book is amazing, though. Probably the fact that you care so much proves it is.

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  20. It's great that you dedicate so much time and effort to your art:) So long as you're true to yourself you can have no regrets, simply love what you're doing for the sake of doing it and that alone will be enough. At least that's what I tell myself:)

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  21. I think Natasha's quote is fitting.
    "You doubt because you care. And that can only lead to great things."

    It'll be great, Morgan. I have no doubt. :)

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  22. You and I could stay up and worry together- I am always worrying if my revisions attempts are even making a difference or hurting what I wanted to say in the first place. Then I start to get bouts of this is all futile because my whole WIP stinks...I'm a mess. Somehow, it's comforting to know, there is another girl out there just like me doing the same thing as me...except she has ginger hair instead of black lol.

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  23. Much luck! I'm sure you will make your debut excellent ;)

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  24. I'm sure it will be fabulous! I know you can do it, even if you question. Hang in there, and good luck.

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  25. I've also gotten into the horrible habit of staying up far too late to write or edit. I totally understand about wanting to make sure the entire book is consistent and has depth and believability.

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  26. Morgan, I don't see how you could write something that wouldn't be incredibly meaningful to a lot of people. We are our own worst critics. Just do the best you can and let it go.

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  27. Morgan, I have to echo Alex on this sentiment. It's hard to imagine you writing anything that is less than stellar. But I kind of get where you're coming from. I'm fine writing blog posts or blog articles, but as soon as I start on something I want to submit for publication or a contest I go into this hyper-critique guide. It almost makes it impossible to progress, but I push through. I'm not sure I ever feel like "it's good enough". So impressed with you!

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  28. "I know some people are concerned about what publisher they get, but I’m concerned about truly crafting a story that’s amazing. I’m not content with writing something that’s exists on the surface.

    We only get one chance to debut, and I want to make sure I do it in the best way I can to start my career."


    My thoughts exactly, Morgan. I couldn't have said it better, and I would have spent two months and thirty revisions trying.

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  29. Hey Morgan!

    I've been away for too long. This post sounds like me! If only we could put ducttape on our brain's mouth, lol! Your last paragraph summed it up! You're putting in the time, so good things have to come your way! Wishing you the best. :)

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  30. My respect for you just grew in leaps and bounds. So many people are after the wagon to hitch their star to. I'm so relieved (and proud) to see you're just aiming for the shiniest star.

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  31. You have so much heart and you care about the craft and about your story being the very best it can be. You have EVERYTHING it takes to become the writer you want to be. Just believe in yourself. We believe in you. (:

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  32. You'll be climbing charts in no time. You have talent, drive, and sheer will. Anyone that can spin on her toes has to be super human!

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  33. You are dedicated and that will get you many places.

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  34. Oh, Sweets....

    You need not worry ... You have the gigt, the lbinding light, and most importantly of all, the passion! This combination along with your positive outlook will be a beacon for all of your readers....

    And congrats on your knighthood! What an honor!

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  35. "You is kind. You is smart. You is important." -- The Help

    That is all my dear Morgan :O

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  36. Oh, I can totally relate. I'm going through copy edits right now and feeling epic fail on a grand level. lol

    Just be careful about burying yourself so deep that you're not able to see it. *hugs*

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  37. I applaud you for your hard work. That's fantastic. Sometimes, however, a little distance and some time away from your work gives you proper perspective. I don't think anythings EVER perfect.

    So, what's your book about?

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  38. I completely understand. I want my work to be as good as it can be. I want people to be on the edge of their seats, almost ripping the pages because they have to turn them so fast to keep going. I want them to feel for my characters to the point where they almost expect to see them walking down the street. I'm scared too. But it's a good fear. It means that I really want this, and when I've decided that, it means I can't possibly fail.

    I'm sure it's more perfect than you know. I met someone who told me that when they find errors in books, it somehow makes it more human. Easier to connect with on a very subconscious level. So don't get too caught up on perfection, just write with the intent to make your readers itch for more. :)

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  39. "We only get one chance to debut, and I want to make sure I do it in the best way I can to start my career."

    Best. Damn. Line. Evah.

    (and please forgive my vulgar, Oirish mouth :)

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  40. I am in your boat right now. Although, I'm not doing revisions but I feel more pressure than ever right now. But like others have said above, I'm sure what you're writing is amazing!

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  41. I feel your pain...which is why I know it will pass and you'll realize what an amazing talent you are. :)

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  42. With that kind of passion, how could your work be anything except amazing! Head up, lady...or I'll grab your ponytail and pull it up for you. *evil grin*

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  43. stay fabulous with your passion, pray often, and you will definitely be where you need to be...in your writing talents!! love love love the morg

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  44. I totally know how you feel! Sometimes I feel I could revise and revise and revise and never be satisfied! But that's what the rest of the writing community is for - our betas and CPs and agents. They're there to say Enough already! It's good! Stop second guessing! =D

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  45. Sounds like you are pouring your whole self into the project. Wishing you all the best with it!

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  46. I want you to know I haven't been blogging lately, but I was thinking today about you and how you're doing, which brought me here.

    If there's anyone that I think will do well with their debut novel, it's you. I'm sure your story is lovely, full of depth and realness. I can't wait to see how far you go with your writing career.

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  47. Just coming by to say hey. I've already commented on this (wonderful) post earlier, but I thought I'd visit again and see what's up with my favorite ginger girl!

    mlswift.me/blog

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