I’ve had a HUGE revelation this week.
I’m afraid of emotion.
I don’t want to face it. I’d much rather stuff it down and immerse myself in my projects in hopes that I won’t have to do deal with it. I know we all handle hardship differently, but the events of my life have put me in a state where I literally try to avoid emotion. I guess part of me would rather be a robot—throwing myself into work rather than feel and relive certain emotions.
But the catch is that this suppression shows in my writing—and it shows with what types of books I choose to read.
The irony is I started writing because I wanted an escape. An escape from life, emotion, the whole deal. And now I need to face it if I want it to improve my writing. For so long, I thought my genre—YA fantasy—didn’t need to be deep. That I would be fine if I had an amazing concept and great writing. That characters could be surface because the plot was so strong.
I was wrong.
I just finished reading John Green’s The Fault in our Stars. This book has changed the way I will write. It’s changed my perspective. It’s a masterpiece—the way he’s able to balance humor and emotion… and the originality in the way he pieces words together and the feelings they evoke…
I’ve learned that even though I’m not a literary writer, it doesn’t mean I can’t make the passages beautiful and deepen the character so the reader has no choice but to turn the page and think about the story long after it’s over.
So not matter what kind of book you’re writing, I’ve learned that you HAVE to dig deep. Deeper than you think is necessary. It’s about reaching inside and finding the hardest emotion that exists for you to face—and stick it right in front of your nose and stare it down. STARE IT DOWN.
Because anything less won’t translate. I totally believe that.
Have any of you had this revelation? Or does emotion in your stories come easy for you?
Red. Head. Out.