But the truth is...
This writing/querying thing is probably the toughest thing I've been through. Emotionally. Ever. Am I crazy for saying that? It's something that (and not to sound cliche) I know I want/need/have to do, but it's also soooooo draining.
I know it's wrong to think that it gets easier if you have an agent. I've got plenty of friends in the business to know that isn't the case. But, I feel like it does say something to have an agent in your corner. It gives you credibility. It gives you confidence to know your work is good enough that someone of significance backs you up--that in and of itself says a lot.
I wish I had that.
Of course I've got amazzzzzing friends and family, but it's different. It's hard on this side of the fence. The fighting. Fighting. It's a constant inward battle to make yourself sit down and write not knowing if your efforts will ever come to fruition. How many times have I said, "I'm done!" ... only to find myself typing away at the keyboard five minutes later? It's a twisted cycle.
The funny thing is I've never doubted my skills. I only doubt if the universe will line up for me. From what I've read/heard, it takes a bit of luck on your side too.
I do think that when (and I'm saying when not if) I get that agent who says, "yes" I'll take a deep breath. Because that one person does make a difference. At least that's what it looks like from where I'm sitting.
Am I way off? Or am I right? It's hard to know because I'm not there yet. I'd love to know your thoughts.
Red. Head. Out. :D
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